At this very moment, I am contemplating my relationship. I feel so terrible about it, but what else do I do other than ask the Erodr world about it. Yes, it took me almost 2 minutes to get my computer to stop auto-correcting Erodr. Before I go further into detail, let me somewhat explain my love life situation. I have been dating my current boyfriend for over a year now, and there are times where he annoys me, but there are other times where he’s the greatest individual in the world, too.
When I met him, he was not going to school. He was pursuing something that his brother had fell into luck in, and he thought he could get in the same situation. —His brother works for a prestigious bank with an associate’s degree. It’s not common and something that just happened by chance to his brother.— He was working at the university that I attend(ed) and it all seemed hunky-dory. He then decided that he wanted to go to school to pursue something that he rather enjoyed, or seemed to enjoy when he talked about it, and things were looking up. Things were looking up until the other day when he took his calculus test and came out all sad saying that he was pretty sure he failed it. I thought there was some hope for the situation, until I saw his GPA today and the list of grades from his classes. He got a D- in the calculus class, and his GPA accumulated to roughly (one grade wasn’t in yet) a 1.3. This obviously terrified me, and I thought it would him as well, but he seemed to have absolutely no problem with it.
The past couple of days he has been discussing law school. I know any major can go to law school, but he seems to focus on those majors that are “by-chance” majors, as I like to call them. The major he was going in to seemed good, and he seemed pumped about it, but the discussion of law school seemed completely out of hand. Tonight, as he was revealing his GPA to me, he did not seem worried at all. He just blew it off like it was no big deal. He then says he “can still get into law school with a GPA like that.” When asking him what he would want to do with that degree, he stated he did not know, and basically that he just didn’t know about school in general anymore. Which is terrifying.
I am literally at a complete loss for words. I don’t know what to say to him, and I’m pretty sure he knows it and can sense it as well. He began crying and walked outside and I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. I say this, because I thought everything was all mapped out. My plan for life, his plan for life, and what we were going to do together—when our lives were going to mesh, how everything was going to pan out;etc. I am going into a major that is known as not paying so well. This aggravates my parents greatly, but I am not sure if there is much of anything that I can do about it, it is something that I have thought about since high school but have been terrified to tell my parents anything about it.
People of Erodr obviously did not help me much at all. They told me to basically just end it, because if anything were to happen like that, they’d be terrified enough to do the same thing. Some people even put their two cents in it and discussed that they’ve been in similar situations. One girl told me that I’d be a bitch if I did, and maybe he deserved a better girl anyway if I were to be like this. None of this helped my state of mind recently-with not thinking that I’m good enough for him- and didn’t help my state of mind now.
The struggle of relationships is hard, guys
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